Mixed Feeling.

Lately, after news about GAZA being spread all over the world, I've start to feel something. I'm touched. I am sad. I feel that I am no longer in this world. The world will ending up soon. Kenapa perlu aku rasa macam ni Ya Allah. My feeling just switch just like a click. Sebak. Selalu sangat rasa sebak. Dengar lagu opick pun memang sebak. Hati rasa macam ada satu benda yang aku buat tak kena. But what?

Aku sedar, aku telah buat banyak dosa-dosa sehingga mungkin ia sudah besar seperti bukit. Aku ingin berubah, tapi why I am nt istiqamah. Dah ada niat tapi... Hmm It's hard. Dalam kepala ni banyak benda aku fikirkan. My parents,my study and everything.

Baru ni aku dah dapat result for third sem. Alhamdulillah, I can see my mum's face glowing. I hope I can make her glowing in my every sem. I am glad to see her happy. And my dad too. But all that happiness just not happen any longer. There's a problem coating our family. I don't know how to solve it as I am the youngest one. I didn't tell anyone, including my sister. I am extremely dissapointed with my bro. Ya Allah, give him hidayah ya Rabbi. Give my family strength. :(


And about my study, I hope this forth sem, aku nak speed dari awal. I can see the result of staying up till five o clock with roomates. :) CHAYOKK RUSNI! RUSNI COMEL. RUSNI CANTIK DAN RUSNI PANDAI. JUST KENA RAJIN SIKIT YEE!

Mmmm maybe topic ni macam gatal sikit. Hihi. Tapi ma, I want you to know that I wanna get marry ma. I wanna halal relationship cause I wanna get barakah in every I do in this world. Ma, now orang tengah berlumba lumba kejar and kaut pahala ma. Adik taknak ketinggalan ma. I want barakah, in my study and akhirat. Adik harap ma faham. But ma dah cakap, kalau nak kahwin, dia kena dapat kerja. Adik faham sebab ma takmau adik susah nanti. But I just want that barakah. Mana tau, after I getting marry, adik boleh jadi DEAN'S LIST ka. Hehe. I love you ma.